"Our" Love Story: Soulmate Reunited

How right you were when you said that if you let the mind wander it can lead you far, far away into the wilderness and finally throw you into a whirlwind. Given a chance the mind can get very imaginative and creative too. You have a vague picture of me, maybe it is my portrayal of myself through my blog or my eyes on the front page that stare at you all the time. I, however, have no clue what you look like, but somehow through our communications, you seem to have touched me deep within like no one has been able to. I often wonder what you are like, not that it really matters, because I’m madly in love with you anyways. But often I wish I can have a picture of you in mind when I think of you.

I first met him when we were young at the house of our "first" cousin though we are not related despite of different family. His father is the brother of my uncle's wife. And my uncle is the brother of my mom. I didn't even realized how timid that the two relationship. He first saw me standing somewhere talking to other cousins but I didn't even see him around because he is too invisible. I know how shy he was before.

When we grow up, I sat down alone in a small bench and he came approached me sitting and asking me something. When I turned around him, I could try to ask him but he left without unsaid. I never knew this guy is way too shy to talk to me. Everything turns is like how could someone could never try to talk to me maybe because he only thought he wanted me to be his first friend. All of his relatives look at us or maybe he was lovestruck when he see me.

There was a debut of our cousin in the hometown of Batangas. I was one of the 18 treasures and he was one of 18 roses. We couldn't approached that time. A lot of relatives came so I was tagged along with my mom or cousins. The next day, I saw him sitting alone when relatives are passing by; I sat down and try to talk to him.. He was too shy again and I couldn't even try but maybe we are mingle each other talk. Then my mom passed by giving her head sign to me meaning "No". I know that my mom is telling me not too close to him but we were too young back then.

After that, we lost contact and his only sister came approached me telling me that he left to work abroad. I didn't ask anything about him maybe I was just wishing him good luck. Nothing happened the next day or other day because we lost contact.

10 years passed by, he found me through our cousin in facebook. He added me and as I look under his name so I remembered that boy who never get to talk to me. I confirm him and we get to talk each other for such a long time. I know it's been a long time since we haven't talk or met. He has girlfriend that time and he was suffering a great deal of pain and confusion from the recent breakup of his relationship with that girl. I recommended he seek healing and, a week later, he came to me talking as his new close friend.

Seeing people in complete despair is a common occurrence for me but it never gets any easier watching someone fall apart, not least because I’ve been there. Some days, you just wonder what the human race is coming to when people can hurt others in the way this boy was hurting. However, he was living alone in Dubai for almost 3 years and I stay in the Philippines. I know we are both long distance relationship. I was here to help him to recover from his heartbreak.

He told me his story, described what seemed an mysterious relationship – until, in the midst of it, his ex had turned tail and run without warning. To add to his grief and despair, within a week she had hooked up with someone else and told him she wanted to try someone near to her that would easily end up falling in love with someone because of the kiss she haven't tried. Until then, he went back to Dubai, he cried alone and not finding a right girl for him. He cut all the ties to her within a month or I don't remember.

I told him my advice it's better for him to move on and get to talk each other really positive side. He was really happy as I gave him. I came to think of souls and its interchangeability. "Before he asks me – I can tell the number of days he has searched for the perfect soul to ask. I can tell the amount of weight his “sighs” are making. I can also tell the price of his trust and hope for an answer – or something that makes sense. “Soul mate, really what is that?” He spent less than a day to search for the perfect soul simply because he is not looking. His sighs weigh like a brick of wall – he has something else in his mind. His trust is priceless– he is a good industrial engineer, he does not want to risk anything. “A Soulmate,” I say “I’ve always believed, is something or something that sparks your soul. Everyone believes their soulmates are or will be their lovers. Maybe that is why everyone have not been satisfied, always looking, always waiting. They do not believe that it can be their next door neighbour, or their mother who raised, or their brother or sister who protected, or their professor who taught. Would you ever believe that you soulmate can be a beautiful eighty-year old woman? I can believe mine can be my passion – fuels too much of my soul; it can be a possibility. A soulmate secretes a deeper connection. A soulmate can be a soulthing which gives so much value to life. Breathe. Accept it." -

As he started to develop with me because of my personality; and so on we have so much common the likes and dislikes and everything. And after that, he ask me to be his girl and I didn't even think about that coz' of long distance relationship. I gave him yes and it was dated last June 21 and its our first dated we became officially boyfriend and girlfriend. We talk a lot as we grow deeper and our love has grown so strong.

He was my first love, bestfriend and boyfriend. Those three roles are important to me because I never had a boyfriend since I was still studying. People kept asking me, "Why I didn't have a boyfriend even I was too pretty?" I gave them my answers, "My first priorities was to finish my studies and got a diploma on my own." I'm very proud of myself what I did for the past of 7 years as a full time student. Right now, I found him, my first soul mate that entered my life.

We were really happy everyday as much as we needed each other and I know how far we are. But we keep strong and we feel connected so much. I am really excited for you to come home this coming Christmas and I'm happy and I would be able to hug you.

I really really love you, dear!!