Monthsary Message to my Boyfriend

I know we don’t get to talk or see each other much. But being apart for now doesn’t change the way I feel about you in my heart. Sure I’m lonely, and sometimes I’m overwhelmed with this emptiness in my chest. But, just remember that I love you and everything about you. That’s what gets me through every minute of every day that I’m without you. I long to hold you and feel your sweet caress, I have never loved anyone as much as I love you.

You make me feel loved, you make me feel safe, but more importantly, you make me feel wanted. We both knew our friendship would grow right from the very first day we spoke. But, neither one of us could begin to imagine the love we both feel, not exploding or thundering into our hearts, but just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship that only you and I can understand. You are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, and my love. Having your love has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don’t care what others say about you and me. All I know is that I love you, and that will never change.

Do you exactly what the song means that you heard from youtube “THE BEST THING” by Reliant K. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me. I can only say this once and will never be again. But to you alone. I love you so much that I can’t imagine. Roy, you are the smile in my face…the tears in my eyes…you are the thoughts in my mind and my dream every night…you will never be anyone but you will always be my only one MINE. I will love you no matter what ’til the end of time. I love you so much hubby..

I don’t usually feel the miles between us, but for some reason, tonight I do. I miss you, with every fiber of my being…hahahaha…. It’s not often that we find ourselves with so much time in between conversations. And as we knew from the beginning, life was going to interfere sometimes. But that’s when I remember just how blessed we truly are for the time that we do spend together. It makes it all the more special, and I can only be grateful.

It’s times like this when I start to reflect on just how much you mean to me. That despite the thousands of miles between us, no two hearts could ever be closer. Not only do I feel blessed, but… I feel like I have been divinely favored. Out of all the people in the world, it’s as if God had picked you, just for me. He must have because it’s the easiest thing in the world for me to love you.

The sun is about to rise where you are. And I wish more than anything that I could have been there with you.

Just know that I love you. Yesterday, right this second, tomorrow, and all the days of my life. I wanted to tell you how much I love you. Even though we won’t see each other for a few years, it will be worth it. I want to spend every second of my life with you, but unfortunately we will have to wait for that to be a possibility. I promise that you won’t regret waiting because I will always love you more than any other person could love you and I mean it. So wait for me while I’ll wait for you too…

God has got his own reasons for us to meet and come this far. But I hope our love will flourish beyond what it is right now. Distance maybe just a part of the reason why sometimes we think we can’t handle this whole relationship, but I am sure our love for each other is way far stronger then any oceans can come across.

I am writing you this letter to tell you that my love for you is so real that I can’t find any words to describe my feelings for you. At the same time I would like to thank you for all your patience while our relationship had to go through high waves and hard rocks. My love for you has grown so strong that I can never imagine a life without you now.

I will always be yours no matter what the world turns out to be. My heart will always yearning for your love and care forever. I love you always.

Missing you so much!!!! I guess what I’m saying is that before you, it seemed that I had nothing, and now I feel I have it all. And it is all due to you and you alone. Well, I should probably say that I love you and miss you and that this has got to be harder than anything that I have ever done, being this close to you but yet so far away. I love you hubby, more than my life… more than my world. You are my world. Life wouldn’t be life if not shared with you. We may be far away from each other for now, but you have my heart and my love. And I know that I have yours, too. HAPPY MONTHSARY ROY! (10 months and still counting!)

Be With You

Written by my boyfriend..

“To love is to share life together

to build special plans just for two

to work side by side

and then smile with pride

as one by one, dreams all come true.”

I remember the 1st time I ever saw her it was because our aunt wanted us to meet. So there she was standing right in front of me looking at me with her sweet smile but shy. There I stood frozen in front of her can’t even utter a single word.

“To love is to help and encourage

with smiles and sincere words of praise

to take time to share

to listen and care

in tender, affectionate ways.”

I saw her sitting on a bench so I worked up all the guts I had and tried to come and talk… honestly I don’t know if we talked or not coz I never knew what to say. So most likely we just sat there in total silence her thinking about what this kid is doing and me thinking how much of an idiot I am for not knowing what to say… but I was young and very shy inexperienced in the whole romance thing.

“To love is to have someone special

one who you can always depend

to be there through the years

sharing laughter and tears

as a partner, a lover, a friend.”

A few more years went by and really there was no contact until an event came it was my cousin’s debut I was asked to be one of the 18 roses. I guess I knew she would be there, well a part of me wished if I could see her again maybe try to make up for the past. But like the last I still froze… I guess her being that amazingly gorgeous its really gonna be hard to put words together and say something… so the chance slipped away and this time I knew it might not happen again and she will be the one I will refer to as “The Girl Who Got Away…”.

“To love is to make special memories

of moments you love to recall

of all the good things

that sharing life brings

love is the greatest of all.”

A few years pass and I had to leave the country to work abroad, met a few girls and found someone I thought to be the one for me… although she was always there the girl that got away… but things ended terribly and I got hurt really bad, my heart was broken and my will vanished. I had to cope with the loss threw myself to do other stuff until I found her again from my cousin. So I told myself what do I have to lose… let’s just say hello and see what her reaction will be… she responded with a nice greeting being such a friendly person. That is where we began to talk more and more until I asked for her YM ID. We talked everyday told her about stuff and the heartbreak I just had. She wanted to help so she gave her words of comfort and she supported a friend… at 1st she described me as a stranger then a stalker, but as we talk more and more I became her close friend.

“I've learned the full meaning

of sharing and caring

and having my dreams all come true;

I've learned the full meaning

of being in love

by being and loving with you.”

Turns out she’s starting to feel something too… for the first in her life she’s starting to fall in love… luck I guess or was is fate that did all that. For me to find her again and regain the chance I lost before… I came to realize what a unique personality she has even though she can’t open up to me fully I came to know her a bit more. Until it became undeniable the feelings we developed for each other… for her it was her 1st… for me I feared it thinking I could get hurt again. But it was real… what she feels for me was real and what I feel for her is real. So I didn’t want to waste anymore time and another chance so I asked her to be my girlfriend, I know and I felt that we feel the same towards each other so I took the plunge and she officially became my Girlfriend. Since then I grew more and more fond with her and discovered more interesting facts about her life as a student, as a friend, and as a loving daughter. I was there when se was sad and down never left her side not even once. She means the world to me, she is my life… the common things we share made us closer the love we felt made us stronger. I know she is the one for me and I will never let her go… I will care for her and love her that is my mission. I will build my life around her and for her to help and encourage her in finding herself… her place in this world. I will forever support her in anything and everything she does coz I know there is greatness inside her. I’ve never been this happy and I guess I can say I’ve waited my whole life for her! I am totally completely fallen inlove with her and I know she feels the same way. I love you more than anything in this world DEAR and I would never tire telling you that everyday.

Happy 3rd MonthSary my Rina! I Love You always and forever!...

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,

And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,

You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,

I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,

I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,

By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,

How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

"Our" Love Story: Soulmate Reunited

How right you were when you said that if you let the mind wander it can lead you far, far away into the wilderness and finally throw you into a whirlwind. Given a chance the mind can get very imaginative and creative too. You have a vague picture of me, maybe it is my portrayal of myself through my blog or my eyes on the front page that stare at you all the time. I, however, have no clue what you look like, but somehow through our communications, you seem to have touched me deep within like no one has been able to. I often wonder what you are like, not that it really matters, because I’m madly in love with you anyways. But often I wish I can have a picture of you in mind when I think of you.

I first met him when we were young at the house of our "first" cousin though we are not related despite of different family. His father is the brother of my uncle's wife. And my uncle is the brother of my mom. I didn't even realized how timid that the two relationship. He first saw me standing somewhere talking to other cousins but I didn't even see him around because he is too invisible. I know how shy he was before.

When we grow up, I sat down alone in a small bench and he came approached me sitting and asking me something. When I turned around him, I could try to ask him but he left without unsaid. I never knew this guy is way too shy to talk to me. Everything turns is like how could someone could never try to talk to me maybe because he only thought he wanted me to be his first friend. All of his relatives look at us or maybe he was lovestruck when he see me.

There was a debut of our cousin in the hometown of Batangas. I was one of the 18 treasures and he was one of 18 roses. We couldn't approached that time. A lot of relatives came so I was tagged along with my mom or cousins. The next day, I saw him sitting alone when relatives are passing by; I sat down and try to talk to him.. He was too shy again and I couldn't even try but maybe we are mingle each other talk. Then my mom passed by giving her head sign to me meaning "No". I know that my mom is telling me not too close to him but we were too young back then.

After that, we lost contact and his only sister came approached me telling me that he left to work abroad. I didn't ask anything about him maybe I was just wishing him good luck. Nothing happened the next day or other day because we lost contact.

10 years passed by, he found me through our cousin in facebook. He added me and as I look under his name so I remembered that boy who never get to talk to me. I confirm him and we get to talk each other for such a long time. I know it's been a long time since we haven't talk or met. He has girlfriend that time and he was suffering a great deal of pain and confusion from the recent breakup of his relationship with that girl. I recommended he seek healing and, a week later, he came to me talking as his new close friend.

Seeing people in complete despair is a common occurrence for me but it never gets any easier watching someone fall apart, not least because I’ve been there. Some days, you just wonder what the human race is coming to when people can hurt others in the way this boy was hurting. However, he was living alone in Dubai for almost 3 years and I stay in the Philippines. I know we are both long distance relationship. I was here to help him to recover from his heartbreak.

He told me his story, described what seemed an mysterious relationship – until, in the midst of it, his ex had turned tail and run without warning. To add to his grief and despair, within a week she had hooked up with someone else and told him she wanted to try someone near to her that would easily end up falling in love with someone because of the kiss she haven't tried. Until then, he went back to Dubai, he cried alone and not finding a right girl for him. He cut all the ties to her within a month or I don't remember.

I told him my advice it's better for him to move on and get to talk each other really positive side. He was really happy as I gave him. I came to think of souls and its interchangeability. "Before he asks me – I can tell the number of days he has searched for the perfect soul to ask. I can tell the amount of weight his “sighs” are making. I can also tell the price of his trust and hope for an answer – or something that makes sense. “Soul mate, really what is that?” He spent less than a day to search for the perfect soul simply because he is not looking. His sighs weigh like a brick of wall – he has something else in his mind. His trust is priceless– he is a good industrial engineer, he does not want to risk anything. “A Soulmate,” I say “I’ve always believed, is something or something that sparks your soul. Everyone believes their soulmates are or will be their lovers. Maybe that is why everyone have not been satisfied, always looking, always waiting. They do not believe that it can be their next door neighbour, or their mother who raised, or their brother or sister who protected, or their professor who taught. Would you ever believe that you soulmate can be a beautiful eighty-year old woman? I can believe mine can be my passion – fuels too much of my soul; it can be a possibility. A soulmate secretes a deeper connection. A soulmate can be a soulthing which gives so much value to life. Breathe. Accept it." -

As he started to develop with me because of my personality; and so on we have so much common the likes and dislikes and everything. And after that, he ask me to be his girl and I didn't even think about that coz' of long distance relationship. I gave him yes and it was dated last June 21 and its our first dated we became officially boyfriend and girlfriend. We talk a lot as we grow deeper and our love has grown so strong.

He was my first love, bestfriend and boyfriend. Those three roles are important to me because I never had a boyfriend since I was still studying. People kept asking me, "Why I didn't have a boyfriend even I was too pretty?" I gave them my answers, "My first priorities was to finish my studies and got a diploma on my own." I'm very proud of myself what I did for the past of 7 years as a full time student. Right now, I found him, my first soul mate that entered my life.

We were really happy everyday as much as we needed each other and I know how far we are. But we keep strong and we feel connected so much. I am really excited for you to come home this coming Christmas and I'm happy and I would be able to hug you.

I really really love you, dear!!