Midterm Exam

There is midterm exam on tuesday, Jan. 13-15 including Saturday. Too bad, wasn't able to study all just because I have workloads to do specially with the website project. Although, I couldn't blogged last week due to stress. Hmm.. Pray for me til I get passed all the subjects. Hopefully I would get 90% haha.. :) Have a nice day!

Back to track

Sorry everyone that I haven't come back because last week was super stressed and I still don't have time to get some rest. Anyway, I'm feeling down by my classmates in AHA. I wasn't better executive chef but im trying my best I can for them and they offend me too much that I wasn't working in the kitchen despite of my difficult times. They always too pressured by themselves whenever I asked them for a help and they snubbed at me. I don't know how to be good executive chef. I was helping others to get the table so I have my driver. They are too happy that I worked so hard to get everything what they need. All's complete and nothing happened in the event. In the kitchen, I wasn't happy that they are not listening to me so I felt awkward to them and don't know how to communicate for the first start. I'm still trying to do that but they didn't like the idea that I was chosen Executive Chef and maybe they think that I cannot do it. Ang sabi ng friend ko hirap kc magkikita nilang mahina ako daw. Of course, I'm very nervous but I cannot be too strong to show them but they shoved me off. I was too hurt and felt not good by them. Others are too please with it especially my officers. They are happy that I help them but with the kitchen team, I am not. I wasn't good enough for them. My professor explained it to me why I cried in front of her. I cannot hide my feelings but just to show them. I don't know but I'm embarrassed. I work so hard to get the food back and forth. It's like I am exercise haha but it's good for me diba. Chef Jan will compliment about me that I worked hard. She shouldn't choose me to be executive chef despite of my hard time to do it. Now, I'm not feeling well. I dreamt a lot about what happened yesterday. It's our simulation for culinary. I already told my mom about it. She told me don't mind them and it's over. I don't cry but I'm just feeling down. That's all! Here's the picture:

Me, Chef Jan, Jaq(sous chef), Chef Paul

Chef Jan is the one who advised me and I admired her so much. She is the one helped me a lot to do works. Chef Paul is like an assistant to Chef Jan. Nothing compared each of them haha. But they are good. Chef Jan is 25 years old and he is 23. Haha :)

Look at this event, it's all american style. Our food is american kc.

Here are the food that we cooked:

Chicken fingers with sauce

Nachos

Mini Burgers

Spaghetti(Red Sauce)

Mashed Potatoes

Brownies

Top chefs said it's all yummy haha. But I don't cooked all. I only cooked pasta. Remember what I wasn't too happy if they allowed me to cook some. They seem laugh at me or angry at me for not being cooked the mini burger. So they went to Chef Jan's house to reheat the hamburger in her oven because the oven has 350 degrees but my oven doesn't have one. :D So nevermind. Let them talk bad things about me for not being good as a executive chef. Next sememster, I will not be able to raise my hand if chef announced who wants to nominate as a executive chef. I will not do it anymore because I dislike the team again.. Because I know that they are not cooperating with me. My third certificate with chefs and the president of AHA and Ms. Mona, head of the department. :) But our simulation is successful. Thanks to others who helped to deliver the food.

Grad Pictorial Behind the Scenes

Just came back from the retreat yesterday( 3 days and 2 nights ) in Tagaytay. It's like I was in the meditation there and decided to change my whole image to a new person hehe. Anyway, here's the behind the scenes of my graduation pictorial for the annual yearbook My classmate took this and she has her own photography. She's my back-up photographer haha.. Thanks to rax! This is creative shot and I wear looking smart (it's like im acting as a lawyer) haha.. :) Last photo of the retreat: I grab this photo from my classmate and I don't have time to give my camera to the person because that day was too hot for us to take a pix hehe.. :) My friend wrote a write-up about me for the annual yearbook:

"Rina is full of surprises and she’s one friend you would want to have. People love her sweetness and thoughtfulness. She’s such an amazing girl. She’s very creative and artistic photographer and her works convey her positive outlook towards things around her, she's really put more life in simple things and even turn in a piece of art. She’s free spirited and independent woman who loves to travel and seeks beauty in some different parts of the world. She's devoted to her family, a loving daughter and a sister to her brothers. A very simple and unique lady seemingly believes in a "true beauty lies within her arts that she produces" by looking at her photography, this girl doesn't seem has a slice of being a "kikay".

Though she's busy nowadays, she never fails to get in touch with her friends, she makes other smiles and never ceases to amaze with her "genkiness" or shall I say cheerfulness. She's a good listener and understands her friends’ “irrationality" and ends up cheering you with a smile. She stands out in a crowd in her own way to appreciate good things around her. You can't believe that this pretty lass doesn't have a boyfriend, well she keeps on telling that it's not yet her priority. She's very hardworking student, now that she's going to exit on her student life and facing a journey of a career woman.

She always tries to accomplish something good that is why she makes sure she squeezes in some philanthropy in her young life. Also, she has an absolute zest and love for life, experiences and adventure. A self-confessed wanderlust and hopeless romantic, Rina here is a kind of person who knows what she wants and works hard to get it. In a nutshell, Rina is a phenomenal person with a wonderful heart."

:)

Society of Junior Entrepreneurs

I was too happy that I'm part of SJE(Society of Junior Entrepreneurs) in school organization. This is my section 1. I am irregular student eh..

Find me where I am haha. And uhm, I got a new copy of L Change the WorLd so I now uploaded crunchyroll(dorkiey) and veoh(miszpinay) hahaha..

*where the cities have no name, still building, then burning down love

click this to enlarge picture..

I wonder,
Is this the feeling that I will always encounter once I move to the city? Or is it just the temporary butterflies plaguing my stomach that happened to move up from my stomach to my heart and head?

I was born to adapt to seclusion. But these days, I wake up from my bed and feel loneliness creeping to my head. Being in solitude in my own house, locked in my room, on the chair – in bed – on the floor, has left me comfort. Because I know that when I walk the hallway, food is on the table prepared by my mother. Soil tracks mark the hallway floor from my father’s. And the computer is right on by my brother. Comfort is around because I know that I can call a friend, five minutes away from me, and meet me for dinner.

This made me stop and think. More than usual. My surroundings blurred with the thought of being surrounded with many in a city but still being alone. That the closest interaction I may have is a tap on a shoulder by a stranger telling me to walk, as I stop dead-lost in the middle of the street. A thirst for caffeine would now be a journey for a friend who once waited for five minutes after my invitation. It would suddenly be a eighteen pesos fare and an hour of commute for a familiar face and taste. That I would be walking alone, going somewhere alone, eating alone, in the middle of the day – not because I normally choose to but because this time, I really am alone.

Half of me understand that this is the common scare, creating hesitations and uncertainty of what is about to come. Of living in a city. Of living alone. Of living away from the usual comfort of parents, friends, and common support. The closer July comes, the reality of numbers – facts – bills – situations arouse. Day by day, I build up this confidence that I am not going to falter, that I am not backing down, that this is what I needed, wanted, chosen. That I can struggle to live on my own and to live for myself. This is what I have been talking about for the past two years – the flight away from home – the welcoming of the strange. And this scare, this common scare, is the reason for many to back away and to discontinue. I promise myself to never fear the scare. To not fear the uncertainty. But to be thrilled of the openness and the liberation. To take everything as it comes. To not be afraid of struggle, but embrace it. Because with no guts, there will be no glory.

On the below message, I tried to post from above the long message.. I tried to think on how to write I mean to express my own feelings.. :)


And uhm, I made a CBEA logo. CBEA means College of Business, Entrepreneurship and Accountancy in Miriam College. This is a new department of three courses. This logo will represent in the CBEA contest. I would rather join it hahaha.

Getting ready to school on Wednesday

Sorry I couldn't post about hong kong trip. I was totally busy everyday thinking on what plan would I go to school. I have 6 subjects and the classes will be started on Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. That would make me no sense at all because I might be busier as ever. Hmm, no Tuesday and Thursday but Monday is day off. No Pictures yet until I fixed the layout soon. I want wider layout hahaha. Busy busy again. Sorry everyone. Don't worry I will fixed it sooner okay hehe.

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